Dear future me,

I know u miss him so much. He maybe annoying and have alter ego issues but as time goes by, u make him the exceptions to all the many general u've created before. He taught u the most important thing in life. He brings out the best part in u. Udid realize that ryte? U couldn't care less what other people think about ur relationship. U just knew he was the one. U don't even judge his skinny- skeleton- boney body. All that is important that particular time is to try make him give u the chance to be with him because as u thought at first, he's a keeper.

U just love the way he sarcastically comment about ur body and ur looks. He amazed u in different ways. Diffent from any other guys you'd ever dated. From the fights u've been with him, all the strugles and sacrifices each of u made to make sure the r/ship works. It was one of my best experienced in my life. Although u could not stop compare him with ur perfect long-time bf: Luqman, ofcourse Luqman always win but with him u just close blind eyes on it. U did realize that right? That is LOVE.

But baby, he couldn't care less to give everything when he refused to put commitment in ur relationship. U did realize how much it hurts u. He broke ur heart over and over again. Your friends, ur mum, ur brother hated him so much but u stand up for him. U gave everything that was needed in the r/shipo but look what he did to u. H e crash ur heart. The day u've broke up, remember what he said to u? That was unforgivable dear.. After all that effort, is that the best way he can treat u? He couldn't give u the commitment u ever wanted from him.

U tried ur best. U did ur best for him. U try to save him from the love falls he'd experienced before. But he was the one who couldn't care less about ur effort. He just too blind to see what he has infront of him. Weena always told u: U are the best thing that could ever happen to him. That really shows, he just loose something so precious in his life. U know u could save him. But he was the one who wants it that way.

Let him, leave him with his choice. U hold the principle that everyone has the right to choose ryte? So as he choose to be that way, u just need to let him do that then. Although u knew that was the best decision for him and u realized he did the biggest mistake he ever made in his life,but what else u could do but to let him kill himself. That was his own choice. He's freedom to choose.

I want u to be strong girl. No matter how hard u tried or he ever tried to make it up to u, u just need to remember one thing; YOU DESERVE MORE THAN HE COULD EVER GIVE TO U IN RETURN.

With Love;

Heart-broken me.